When I started engineering at the end of last year, it was around three to six hours a week. That's a huge commitment for me, virtually all of my leisure time.
Since Beta, that's been time well spent. Elite is a fantastic game, that can be played to match my mood. Exciting rescues inside burning stations, fascinating exploration of alien structures or shipwrecks, giggly arcade goodness, blowing up space rocks or gunning down pirates and a whole bunch besides. It's great entertainment.
But power creep has overtaken my fleet. My fast ships aren't, my fighters are firing blanks, my well defended freighters have been refitted with tinfoil hulls!
I decided to try a little engineering to even things up a bit.
I assumed (I know, first mistake

) that two or three years of casual material gathering would have given me more than enough materials to build a base line ship, with all modules fully engineered.
I ran out of mats long before I got half way through. In fact, the ship still isn't fully engineered.
A month or so in I got so demoralised I quit playing. This was shocking to me, I've waited my whole adult life for Elite to be brought up to date, I've built my rig around the game and put an obscene amount of money and time into both.
So I bit the bullet, resolved to 'git gud' and spent three solid months grinding. I've got all the engineers unlocked apart from the Colonia ones, I have huge stockpiles of materials and I can barely see my galmap for markers. I know a
ridiculous amount about where and how to gather mats, although much of it's now obsolete thanks to new patches moving the goalposts.
And it's still not enough!
Every time I think I've got it cracked a new material jumps into the magic potion required for the next upgrade. It's guaranteed to be one I don't have a clue how to gather and I'm left at the same old conundrum- do I spend the rest of the night trawling through internet posts and threads to find out how to find powered unicorn dung
this patch, or do I trade in similar materials at a six to one loss? On to INARA, or EDDB or whatever your preferred out of game asset finding site is, off to a trader to get fleeced, or to some utterly bone activity that may or may not deliver rainbow coloured poo. Hours later, discover I'm one unit short of the upgrade, or that I've spunked the supply of the next magic ingredient I need for the next upgrade trading for the last one.
It's utterly soul destroying!
Yes, there are quicker ways to do it. Believe me, I've watched hours of footage of youtube b-listers making it look like a stroll in the park! But that doesn't speed up the process for me. Nor do helpful comments about how there's
always some additional requirement I needed to make the material spawn, or how they're drowning in it, I must be doing something wrong!
Failing to make any progress is bad enough, but being openly mocked for my ignorance/lack of perseverance/selfishness/impatience or any of a dozen other failings just makes the whole situation worse.
I reached my limit months ago. I decided to do without engineering on my favourite ships. But they're no longer the same. My almost-but-not-quite-fully engineered Python is now the fastest, most agile, heaviest armed, thickest armoured, best shielded ship I own. It makes my Cobras feel slow and my Eagle clumsy. It makes my fighters and warships feel limp. I can melt battleships in it- but I'm a sitting duck in almost everything else I own.
I'm just sick of it, Indigo. The game's balance is utterly broken. 'A' rated ships should be really good at what they do, not feel like a broken down version of the engineered equivalent. Giving the AI all the magic toys in the box just adds insult to injury. It's not every AI that gets the full suite of engineering mods, but vanilla ships, particularly the small, formerly fast and agile ones I prefer, just melt when they do face off against an engineered opponent. And you're a 'leet pilot too, you know how often the cheaty gits rock up! I'm sick of running away, I'm sick of running out of ammo while the other guy's shields are still up, I'm sick of jumping through hoops to try and track down umpteen units of unobtanium just to get my drives back to where they were last year.
So I'm out. I want to get back into it, I really do. Elite was, hell
is, a huge part of my life. But right now I've had enough. I'd rather do something fun for a while, or failing that, if I'm going to be working at something, I'll just take the overtime. At least I'll get paid...