verminstar
Banned
My ex partners kids...they not really kids, they in their 20s kids of their own. Complicated but she is the previous owner of the dogs and the whined and cried fer me fer days after I left...she cant walk anymore and has all but given up on life, so them living with me meant we could at least stay friends. We get along better when we dont live under the same roof and I get along better with animals than I do with people so...complicated...its a 40s thing.
Anyway...her kids are what ye might regard as being well known and very influential and ye break their mommas heart at yer own risk. Its got almost 2k shares on facebook within 3 hours...in fact it had 2.5k shares before I even knew it was on facebook by which time it was already too late. Of course now that just means he knows people are looking for him so finding him will take more time and more favours to repay later.
I dont blame the dog or the breed of the dog...two of my best buds have fully licenced dogs they trust with their childrens lives, and I respect that. The breed I have actually dont have a wonderful reputation either...the problem is always the human influence.
If ye go to a dog fight and they put two pits in and its a fight to the death, ye could put yer arm in there and they wont attack the human because they fear the consequences of doing so more than death itself.
Humans were the ones who put that fear into them when they were pups and used it to make them better fighters on command. I didnt have mine from pups, even though I was there when they were born, so they will only ever be partially trained.
Im well aware of what journalists are like, Ive dealt with them before...they use people and care little of consequences, thats a given...but they can be useful from time to time even if they dont know in what way. As it was, the story that ran in the daily mirror was mistaken on several little details, but by the time they were even aware of the mistakes, the whole thing just snowballed outta control on the internet and they didnt have time to edit the final copy.
It really is a case of my friends being more outraged than me and they are the ones who took up the crusade to find the guy. I have issues with anger and empathy in real life to the point where I can appear to be very cold and emotionless...on the other end of the scale, rages are almost always destructive ergo I learned how to control my anger, but it took me into my mid 30s before I managed it completely.
I am angry, but I am not outraged...I know Ill find the guy eventually, but too many eyes and ears are watching and listening. Ill just melt into the background and encourage this fuss to just vanish and fer the dust to settle. After everyone goes about their boring mundane lives again, then two things will happen. The first thing will be that he wont see it coming, and the second thing being he wont forget it either.
On a more positive note, it wont be me...and thats also a long story which can remain shrouded in mystery methinks. Thanks everyone fer the support, especially fer the two wee horrors currently hogging the entire corner sofa that I normally chill out on after shovelling down half a kilo each of chicken and tripe mix...plates are being licked clean in under 15 seconds I got videos to prove it too...they gonna be ok baskically so a joy joy rainbow and happy ending in the end.
Only it aint the end...not fer me anyway cos now, the initial shock has turned to anger which fer me, is never a happy ending. So I would respectfully ask the mods to close this thread and bow out while Im ahead...cos I have my own ideas about whats gonna happen next and Im not sure sharing those thoughts is a good idea.
Problem being that writing is something I find quite therapuetic, so I sorta need to force meself to stop...or rather I need the mods to force the issue by closing the thread and me walking away and keeping my real life thoroughly offline as it were fer a bit. Im a very private person in real life and live a very solitude life by choice as its better fer others I care about too much to hurt. Friends yes, but they even more messed up than me so we managed to stay friends through 25 years of working alongside each other in a dangerous environment...those are the sorta friendships even a loner like me appreciates and they aint anti social like I am...
And have less self control of their base emotions and my name is plastered all over a national newspaper in the first line on a click bait story...well, the Northern Ireland version of national to be precise, sounded better in me head. Its my worst nightmare truth be told...what I do and how I exist, I do in the background, that is why I am good at what I do...this attention messes with my inner karma and this is something I have taken very personally...which may not work out too good.
So mods....do yerselves and me a favour and just close the thread now and again, thanks all fer the support...and try and understand this is now personal and something I need to take care of in me own way ^
