Community Event / Creation CMDR's Log - Ronik

December 16, 3300

Today was surprisingly inauspicious, considering it was the day I joined the Federation of Pilots. I had expected … fanfare, I suppose. Local gossip and rumor is rife with the news that the Elite ranks have extended their perquisites to lower ranks. I thought this meant that membership was dwindling, but the entire joining process was underwhelming. It was mostly paperwork and transponder coding. Whoever processed me didn’t even shake my hand, and all I got for a good-bye was a shout of “next.”

Of course, what I just realized is that if membership isn’t down and the upper ranks are bringing more pilots into their echelon, then that just means that something is afoot. Either the best pilots in the galaxy are dying, or they’re expecting to soon.

Maybe joining up wasn’t the smartest idea after all.

Of course I say that from the cockpit of the battered Eagle that I traded nearly everything I own and wiped out my savings to acquire. I even sold my telescope, which was probably the hardest thing I’ve ever let go of, as long as any of my exes aren’t reading this. If they (you) are, then I’m probably dead anyway, so they (you) can’t be too angry with me. I hope.

I’m stalling. Pre-flight checks are all go, I’ve aced all the requisite training modules (eventually, and not without some difficulty). Maybe it’s because I didn’t grow up station-side. Do we cultural terrestrials have a harder time finding our way without an up? But then, there’s only no up because there’s also no down.

Here goes nothing. Or maybe everything.

Computer, send departure request to tower control. No, don’t record that, end log. Close log. , did I not set up a voice command? Maybe this is the close swi


Supplemental

It turns out docking is slightly more difficult when a freighter is riding your [expletive deleted] because you’re in his blind spot trying to find your platform number while vectoring away from his bulkheads and the engine wash of the ship in front of you.

I guess out here in the black it’s sink or swim. I’m not sunk yet. But I’m certainly not finding my inner fish, so far.

I’ve got nearly a full day of cargo hauling under my belt. There aren’t many other jobs out there right now, and after crunching the numbers I can see that toting machinery and tea leaves is barely going to cover my operating costs with a little left over for other bills. It turns out that 4 tons is far less up here than it is down on the dirt. I don’t know if this is going to work. I can’t go back home, not after the way I left things there. I just… I can’t be that guy. Who knew that the fastest way to reach escape velocity was to burn all your bridges?

Although… that first time leaving the docking bay with the stars spread before me was simply unimaginable. How many hours did I spend as far from civilization as possible, huddling in the dark with an 11 inch mirror in a tube on a motor, collecting photons from thousands to millions of light-years away? How many times have I pointed out Vega and Deneb and Altair and their constellations? And now here I am, among them, but also closer to civilization that I ever was on my tiny planet, cut off from the goings-on above me. They don’t look any different, but they’ll never be the same. I’m not sure I will be, either.

Tomorrow, I’m going to burn some fuel and see a few things. It’s a waste of money, but I can’t come this far and not indulge myself at least a little. Not that credits are easy to spare after today’s efforts.

Still, I’m paid up on rent through the new year. So that’s nearly two weeks to find some way to make this wild idea viable. At least I have enough credits in my account tonight for a hot meal and a couple drinks. One day’s worth of rations packs and they’re already getting old. I wonder if they have cheeseburgers up here.
 
December 18, 3300

December 18, 3300


I saw a binary system today comprised of a brown dwarf and K-class main sequence star. It was… I’d never be able to resolve that in my ‘scope back on the dirt. And there I was, within a few light-seconds of them. I don’t know how long I stared and I probably don’t want to know how much fuel I wasted. But hot [expletive deleted], I’m nigh on certain that it was worth it.

I also saw slaves being loaded into the hold of one of the type-6’s or type-7’s or whatever they are. I mean, I’ve read about slavery before and I know many cultures have adopted the practice off and on throughout the millennia. But to see them, bound in whatever way they were, treated as sentient cargo valued only for the production they are capable of… I don’t know what was more shocking: the banality of the event, or the fact that, at the same time, it felt so other-worldly. Which, I suppose, it literally is. At least for my culture.

I must have been obvious in my staring, because I drew the attention of a woman who seemed sympathetic, while simultaneously amused. I introduced myself with my real name like a planet-raised buffoon and she said she went by “North,” making it clear with her tone that I should find a name to go by, too. Feeling like a complete idiot, I apparently decided to make things even worse and bring up slavery. She played along and we discussed the concept, both of us being very careful not to declare anything too openly or too strongly. Eventually we turned the conversation to safer topics and I ended up describing a bit of my plight. I certainly didn’t intend to paint myself as down-and-out, but when she offered to buy me lunch, it was not easy to say no. Fortunately, she explained that she was on business and she’d be turning in the receipt for reimbursement. I felt more comfortable with that, and we agreed that we would discuss “business matters” at least until the appetizers arrived.

Business was certainly discussed. Or at least, I think it was. Even after 90 minutes of food and conversation, I’m not sure what line of work she’s in, and it felt like it would be rude to ask her directly. She spoke a lot about business ethics and the philosophy of individual liberty, while making it sound as if she was making an offer. The whole thing made me uncomfortable, and I must have been transparent. She became sympathetic and amused again, and we changed the subject during the main course.

At the end of the meal, after we had the obligatory polite argument over who would leave the tip to remind us all that we’re civilized, she became very blunt. She said that she had opportunities and that I had obligations. “When obligations and opportunities are near each other, they’re like magnets. You can only resist for so long before you’ll find that your compass still points north.” I had to chuckle at that, despite wondering exactly what I had gotten myself into.

I decided that bluntness could be met with bluntness and I told her I wasn’t really interested in the moral grey area of clandestine shipping and receiving. She smiled and told me to check my compass, which I found less amusing than her previous puns, but she departed. I almost called after her to make sure I hadn’t offended her. But I decided that I had shown enough weakness and decided to turn and leave with what dignity I could retain. In the reflection of one of the ad screens, I saw her turn around to see me leaving. I really wish I could have seen her expression to know what she thought of that. I have a feeling it was either the only thing I did right, or the biggest mistake I’ve made so far.

In happier and less confusing news, I made a profit today. I’m not sure I would have without the free lunch, though. In addition, I learned that I never want to haul mineral extractors again. The stupid things are filthy and so oddly shaped that they never stow properly and I have to crawl around the cargo rack trying to manhandle the [expletive deleted] things like they’re socks I’m trying to stuff in an already over-filled luggage tote. My fingernails still have dirt under them, and I’m over 1,000 klicks from the nearest source of it. That seems somehow very unfair.
 
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