probably playing a decent game like Eve online.
oh that's so funny! got any more jokes? - that one cracked me up!
but seriously, if you post the problems you are having there are plenty of users willing to advise you on how to make the best of the beta, post a trollish rant like that though and all you'll get is people taking the mickey.
take a deep breath, relax and calmly explain the issues you're having and you may very soon find that the £50 you spent was a good investment.
to the joystick issue, know anyone with an xbox 360 who could lend you a spare controller? i find its one of the easiest ways to get to grips with the game and quite cheap, but considering your comments i'm surprised you didn't moan about having to own a PC to play as well.
ED is in essence a flight sim, know many aircraft that you fly with a KB & mouse?