To be clear, I was talking about two different friends here. ^^ The one who struggles lives far far away from me, I don't know them thaaat long, but honestly always wished to get closer emotionally and they know and they also know I worry like crazy. At the same time, they usually have no problems straight out telling me they need space or just don't feel like communicating right now, so the "ghosting" is... strange. Unexplainable, tbh.
Feel like I keep ending in situations like this. I honestly wouldn't call myself a bad friend (though not always an easy one, because I'm sensetive), but I'm very hands on and want to help and besides my best friend tend to either get emotionally close with friends who have a huge lack of empathy or are challenged with opening up even if they say they're working on it.
I can be patient with the latter. I just... need a little clue on wheather I'm still wanted and what to do.
My biggest weakness and my biggest strength at the same time: I have a very very very hard time of letting people I love go. That makes me hold on through the biggest storms and also when friends mess up several times - which is a plus - but it also makes me incredibly vulnerable.
I'm 40 now. I almost have given up on trying to change anything about it. Didn't work for the last 10 years. But yeah, you're right and I know you are that I just have to accept the situation as it is now. It just goes against anything I believe. Personally, if I was in a big slump, I'd appreciate my friends staying at my side and beeping me once in a while, if I were just not able to reach out. Then again, I'm a "talker", I tend to talk things out when I'm depressed, never fully cut myself off from the world. What I do know though is, that you can absolutely and totally forget people worry about you and are effected when you do or do not do something.
As for the concert, I hope my mum will just be alright by then. Sunday is the day.
. Now I am wondering how I am gonna make it through the next (planet-zoo less) weeks 