The more and more I play the more I realize what I am experiencing is actually not really "fun". Its too real for that. My brain is basically convinced I am there living a second life, and if I were to live that life then fun would only be an occasional part of what goes on in my life. I have fun in ED.
Like last night I went on a deep space survey to Betelgeusse with the pirate who robbed me during my first week of play. Seeing Betelgeusse was very very fun.
But most of the time I am just living. Taking things almost seriously because I'm forced to by my brain. Its a good life, filled with lots of emotions, positive and negative. Ranging from sheer awe to frustration and embarrassment.
I'm not playing cos it's fun. This is new.
Like last night I went on a deep space survey to Betelgeusse with the pirate who robbed me during my first week of play. Seeing Betelgeusse was very very fun.
But most of the time I am just living. Taking things almost seriously because I'm forced to by my brain. Its a good life, filled with lots of emotions, positive and negative. Ranging from sheer awe to frustration and embarrassment.
I'm not playing cos it's fun. This is new.