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verminstar

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Ok I'll answer this...I have absolutely no problem talking about my life...it's all very easily viewed on my fakebook profile as public information because I don't hide anything.

I have, to give it the full title, relapsing remitting multiple sclerosis. I have 6 lesions on my brain and 3 that press down on my spinal column...those are the 3 that mean I walk like I'm drunk and give me, at times, severe mobility issues. I'm currently in remission and haven't had a single relapse since I...erm...changed my medicine against the advice of my neurologist who said I would be crippled if I stopped. A year later and I'm not crippled and have more mobility now than I ever had since my diagnosis...my neurologist cannot explain why and wants to carry out further tests to understand why I'm still on my feet.

However...the plot thickens. I'm also a widower single father to an autistic teenager. She has aspergers syndrome to name but one...there are others but that is the main culprit. I have it meself, although to a somewhat lesser degree. Mine is more manageable. My wife passed away when my daughter was 6 years old, and I refused any and all help from social services...mostly because I don't trust them as being a part of the establishment.

Some fights are both mental and physical...in my case, ye can't see the pain but I can assure it's there. To this day, I still refuse a lot of help which I am entitled to because that's the way I am. Up until 6 months before I was diagnosed, I worked a full time physically demanding job, and did mountain biking since the late 1980s.

I console myself with the fact I had a full life before nature's sense of humor caught up with me...spent the first year of this illness with crippling pain, a wheelchair and even a zimmer walking frame. The downward spiral was sudden and brutal from active life to totally disabled.

Everything there is very easily viewed by anyone looking at my FB profile...which is set to public because quite frankly...I don't care who knows. I have nothing to hide...ok no I do but another time perhaps ^^
 

Minonian

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Neither do i don't feel i have something to hide, i simply don't think this is their business, and i don't want their pity, neither the strange eyes looking at me... Hehh!? :D Whom i'm kidding we are just out of this world like a little green man from mars. :p And to be entirely honest?! I don't even need their pity. I have my limitations but also things what wery few man can manage to do. We are handicapped? No doubt! But what god taken from us? He also given something else instead of it. High functioning autism is hardly a mental sickness. we are just... Thinking differently than the average humans do, and in many cases? Much more clearer, and smarter. We have a mental vision what must be cultivated, because belíve me when i saying it. It' an unparalleled gift, if you know how to make out the best of it, and deal with the worst part.

Albert Einsten, Isaac Newton, Leonardo Da vinchi. You know what's common in them? Bingo! Autistic traits. The inventor Of torrent? he too an Asperger Syndrome autist.

So yes i too Have Asperger Syndrome.
 
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verminstar

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Pity? Aw ye, it'd be easy to turn on the sob story about how hard life has been, but hey that's life. And yes, I do have a mild case of aspergers, although as explained elsewhere, my daughter is much more low functioning than my own. I wasn't even diagnosed until after my daughter was, and honestly hadn't even heard of it before that happened...missus of that era was obsessed with finding out which one of us was responsible and yours truly was the prime suspect, considering I'm a grade A rated weirdo and a true loner in every sense of the word. I'm anti social by choice, although I am fairly capable of being the life and soul of the party when it suits me.

The stereotypes stopped when I ran away from what was northern ireland at it's worst to join the army. Talk about outta the pan and into the fire, things went utterly sideways fer me after that. But that's another story.

Everyone has a different story and the reason I will never stop fighting back is because I know a great many whose stories are way worse than my stories. I've seen human beings at their very worst on a level that few will ever truly understand. The day I stop fighting back will be the day I'm dead...then I'll come back and haunt ye ^^
 

Minonian

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verminstar said:
Pity? Aw ye, it'd be easy to turn on the sob story about how hard life has been, but hey that's life. And yes, I do have a mild case of aspergers, although as explained elsewhere, my daughter is much more low functioning than my own. I wasn't even diagnosed until after my daughter was, and honestly hadn't even heard of it before that happened...missus of that era was obsessed with finding out which one of us was responsible and yours truly was the prime suspect, considering I'm a grade A rated weirdo and a true loner in every sense of the word. I'm anti social by choice, although I am fairly capable of being the life and soul of the party when it suits me.
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Same there except? I'm a grade A+ weirdo.

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I've seen human beings at their very worst on a level that few will ever truly understand. The day I stop fighting back will be the day I'm dead...then I'll come back and haunt ye ^^
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Same there. My reason to be a loner by choice? Simple. I know and see human nature, too well! I suspect that's your case too. We just see what humanity really is, and we see "the human soul" down to the core. So? We don't want to take a part of this banged up sick mess.

Fighting back? That's a constant state. Anyone thinks he can bend my will mess with my life? Going to be disappointed.
 

verminstar

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verminstar
Ah no...in my case I saw things in my life that no other person should ever have to see. Like looking at someone's eyes just at the point of death, to see the spark go out and the glazed look take hold...the light gone forever. My time in the military was not filled with happy memories, can assure ye of that. Ye know what they do with those who are smarter than the usual cannon fodder? Those from violent and broken backgrounds are just the types they love recruiting. Joe public doesn't really care that bad people have to do very bad things to make something good...all Joe public cares about is another 3 pennies off the cost of fuel at the pumps. Obviously Joe public doesn't need to know the details of how that was achieved...that's just inconvenient and could well cloud their judgement of their governments who would never order anything bad or wrong...surely not.

In a way, I was always jealous of the yanks who used to wrap themselves in their flag and drink budweiser while the burgers are on the BBQ...oh and those officers playing football in the compound? That's not a football...that's something else...something the folks back home will never know about that's fer sure.

Actually, having aspergers would have been a good thing for my brother in law who simply couldn't live with himself afterwards. Zero support after he left the army, living on the streets while immigrants from the country he served in had houses and money literally thrown at them. Couldn't live with his demons that haunt our dreams at night...he is no longer with us. That is how our great nations repay those who serve them.

And I haven't even started on what happened, and still happening in northern ireland. Some very juicy details there about what our own government gets up to. Take the Omagh bomb for example which is fairly well known as one of the worst atrocities during peace time. I wonder how many would be comfortable hearing about what really happened and how those 29 deaths could have been avoided entirely...

But it was more useful to the politicians that those people be sacrificed for the greater good...a failed car bomb with no deaths was something the politicians couldn't use, but an atrocity?

And that's barely even scratching the surface.

Never back down and never give up because that is exactly what they want you to do. Just accept things the way they are and go live some boring life somewhere, pay yer taxes and believe what we tell you to believe, but most importantly, never ever bite the hand that feeds ^^
 

Minonian

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Theirs... :) End of the story! Their problems with my attitude? that's also their problem and not mine.
For my part? It's impossible to divide the ... i give.

Edit; Black is black, withe is white, and a scum?
You have problems with that? Are you unable to face the mirror, hold to you, so you trying to shatter it?
Pathetic...
 
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