Hi,
My name is Dexter Wolf. I am the youngest of five children of a local merchant in Olympus Village on Mars. He specialized in the import of exotic fruit and vegetables and the business was always good enough for us to lead a comfortable life. He took an early retirement and let my eldest brother and sister take over the business short before my mother died. She was a nurse at the hospital and you know how they say doctors make the worst patients? Nurses are no better!
She was strong and stubborn and ignored the growing pain for too long. Even with gene therapy and progenitor cells there is a point in the development of cancer where it is too late for the beginning of treatment. When she finally agreed to get checked up and was diagnosed it had already spread to most vital organs. Still, she had some quality time with us left, as the growth of the many tumors was slowed significantly by the meds. Yet in the end all they could do was ease her passing. This is now a couple of years ago and I still think about her a lot. I do miss her.
Not too long after my father met someone else and married again. She is a lovely woman. We do like her a lot, and we are all glad they are happy together. My brothers and sisters went on with their lives and their work; the oldest two with the trading, the others as a carpenter building luxury interiors and as a teacher; and me as a computer technician at a manufacturer of a luxury clothing. Everything was back to normal. Nothing had changed, really. It never does.
We are a very planet-bound family. Ever since the earliest settlement none of us took to the stars. Even for longer distances to other cities or villages, ground based transport like trains or shuttle busses are the vehicles of choice. As we would say, we are very much down to Mars. Humans were made to live on planets and to walk, not to fly. That is for others, not for us. There was this one exception, my great granduncle Robert, but we don’t talk about him that much.
Of course that does not mean I was not thinking about him. He was the only one who ever left planet side. And he came back; years later, with some grand tales about adventure, heroism, exploring, and incredible sights. I had not even been born at the time but you know how those stories of the old ones go! Although he wasn’t cast out he was always met with suspicion by the rest of the family. My father once told me Robert had a part in the founding of a strange organization of some sort. Well, I might never know…
All I know is that something was missing. I have no friends, no social connections. I am not good in dealing with people, hence my preference for a job operating machines and computers. Small talk bores me most of the time and many problems of my surrounding seem insignificant to me. It is not that I was unhappy, just not… complete. Very often I looked at the little pin badge my dad had in a drawer of his desk. It had belonged to Robert, and as he had no children it went to his brother, my great grandfather, and so found its way to my father. It looked like a variation to the emblem of the Pilots Federation. A shape with wings. Obviously! And I looked at the stars, night after night, not knowing what I was looking for. I didn’t want to run away from anything. I didn’t want to get someplace special.
I don’t know when or how I made the decision, but one day there I stood in front of my father asking for my part of the inheritance from my mother who had owned a little part of the shop. He took it surprisingly well and even when I told him what I intended to do, he remained calm and reasonable. The other members of my family though I had gone out of my mind. Still everybody was there at my farewell party. It was a pleasant, intimate get-together with a lot of well-wishes and good advises, I was told many times to “write often” and “keep in touch”. Then I left.
After completing the simulator training and passing the test for the pilot’s license I applied for entry to the Pilots Federation. Better safe than sorry. They act in the interest of their members, independent pilots.
On the bulletin board of Olympus Village I found this cheap offer of a rather used Faulcon DeLacey Sidewinder. I had to book a flight to Mars High, the Sidewinder has no atmospheric shielding, too expensive. Funny, I have never left the planet before and my ship has never landed on one. After all expenses I have about a thousand credits left. Not a lot. Not really enough to make money by trading either. Luckily my old employer gave me a little contract of transporting some of the latest fashion articles to earth for some credits. “That at least something useful comes out your stupid idea to leave”, he said. Not the most lucrative first mission. And I will not even be able to visit the planet. But well, it doesn’t matter.
So here I am, in my own cockpit, in my own ship. I have the pin-badge of my great granduncle with me. My father said, it may be more useful to me up here than to him down there. I don’t know. We’ll see.
Who am I, do you ask? Nobody, I say. Just another pilot trying to make it in the galaxy. But for the first time I am doing something that feels meaningful. And there is something else.
I am not nervous. I am not afraid.
I am ready.