First, all references to murder in this post relate specifically to killing elite dangerous CMDRs.
So I was at Robigo in my fdl. Five minutes before I'd been running passenger missions in my suicide python in open.
Now I was in my totally overpowered death machine and I wanted to tease other cmdrs.
I pull an AspX out of supercruise. He had fought the interdiction. One plasma volley and he was down to half health.
"STOP" I message him.
The idea of killing him hasn't crossed my mind yet.
"Target FSD charging"
[•••]
In that moment, I decide to pull the trigger knowing full well that another volley may destroy him. It does.
I get a wave of genuine guilt (Yes absurd I know!
). He was in all likelihood a peace loving explorer, hell, maybe it was Obsidian Ant
. He simply made the mistake of being in a very vunerable ship in a CMDR heavy system like Robigo whilst it was anarchy. Fighting the interdiction. And not stopping, although I don't blame him for not trusting me.
I am heading to Robigo mines to clear.my bounty (I'd got one for opening fire too close to the station earlier).
There is guilt, but I have enjoyed myself. I enjoyed destroying this completely outmatched CMDR. It was thrilling to be so overwhelming powerful, and to use that power to destroy a cmdrs ship.
When I get to Robigo mines I am denied docking. Someone is on the only medium pad. It is the very same cmdr!
"Apologies for destroying your vessel. You should have stopped. I would not have continued. Now, please leave the pad I need to use it. I will not harm you."
"Hmmm, maybe I just go make a tea now" he replies.
"Cmdr, don't be foolish. If you do not leave in the next two minutes I will hunt you across the galaxy and destroy you wherever I see you"
"People like you ruin elite dangerous" he says. [???]
"Cmdr, I'm sorry for destroying your vessel. You have two minutes to leave."
"I need to go for pee now ha". From the security of the pad he is mocking me.
"You've signed your own death warrant cmdr. I hope you like fear." His two minutes are up and I jump to supercruise, hanging in space outside the outpost.
Not even a minute later he appears in superxruise.
Immediately I interdict him.
He fights it.
In normal space when I get my five plasma accelerators trained on him he is boosting away and popping sink after sink. I can't get a lock, I have no reticule.
I boost towards him and let the nose of my fdl sit on the side of his asp, and at point blank range two volleys destroy him again.
I am satisfied. The sadism has been thrilling, and I get revenge for his mocking. And confirmation if any was needed (it's not) that I can crush him on a whim. Not because I'm a better pilot but because I'm flying an absolutely terrifying murderboat and he's a harmless explorer in a shieldless asp. And no bounty. The power in this part of the galaxy is perfectly fine with slaughter.
But there is guilt. I try to shake it off.
I decide to not chase him across the galaxy or destroy him if I happen to see him again.
Hell, if he was to send me a friend request I would accept it and help him if I could.
But there is only guilt and pleasure and a really powerfully compelling experience.
I recommend everyone does it once.
Commuting murder in elite dangerous is an incredible experience. I am yet to be desensitized to it. If you don't want to do it then cool nevermind. But I wanted to try to help people to understand why some do it. And give an indication of the emotions it brings. Killing cmdrs in a fair fight is a very different experience. You can feel accomplishment and pride at your skill. Killing those cmdrs that are completely defense less is another experience. And one very much worth having.
Let's keep the galaxy dangerous for all.
I cannot talk about real life here because I cannot do it justice. Just let it be known I don't believe in hurting people, anybody.
So I was at Robigo in my fdl. Five minutes before I'd been running passenger missions in my suicide python in open.
Now I was in my totally overpowered death machine and I wanted to tease other cmdrs.
I pull an AspX out of supercruise. He had fought the interdiction. One plasma volley and he was down to half health.
"STOP" I message him.
The idea of killing him hasn't crossed my mind yet.
"Target FSD charging"
[•••]
In that moment, I decide to pull the trigger knowing full well that another volley may destroy him. It does.
I get a wave of genuine guilt (Yes absurd I know!


I am heading to Robigo mines to clear.my bounty (I'd got one for opening fire too close to the station earlier).
There is guilt, but I have enjoyed myself. I enjoyed destroying this completely outmatched CMDR. It was thrilling to be so overwhelming powerful, and to use that power to destroy a cmdrs ship.
When I get to Robigo mines I am denied docking. Someone is on the only medium pad. It is the very same cmdr!
"Apologies for destroying your vessel. You should have stopped. I would not have continued. Now, please leave the pad I need to use it. I will not harm you."
"Hmmm, maybe I just go make a tea now" he replies.
"Cmdr, don't be foolish. If you do not leave in the next two minutes I will hunt you across the galaxy and destroy you wherever I see you"
"People like you ruin elite dangerous" he says. [???]
"Cmdr, I'm sorry for destroying your vessel. You have two minutes to leave."
"I need to go for pee now ha". From the security of the pad he is mocking me.
"You've signed your own death warrant cmdr. I hope you like fear." His two minutes are up and I jump to supercruise, hanging in space outside the outpost.
Not even a minute later he appears in superxruise.
Immediately I interdict him.
He fights it.
In normal space when I get my five plasma accelerators trained on him he is boosting away and popping sink after sink. I can't get a lock, I have no reticule.
I boost towards him and let the nose of my fdl sit on the side of his asp, and at point blank range two volleys destroy him again.
I am satisfied. The sadism has been thrilling, and I get revenge for his mocking. And confirmation if any was needed (it's not) that I can crush him on a whim. Not because I'm a better pilot but because I'm flying an absolutely terrifying murderboat and he's a harmless explorer in a shieldless asp. And no bounty. The power in this part of the galaxy is perfectly fine with slaughter.
But there is guilt. I try to shake it off.
I decide to not chase him across the galaxy or destroy him if I happen to see him again.
Hell, if he was to send me a friend request I would accept it and help him if I could.
But there is only guilt and pleasure and a really powerfully compelling experience.
I recommend everyone does it once.
Commuting murder in elite dangerous is an incredible experience. I am yet to be desensitized to it. If you don't want to do it then cool nevermind. But I wanted to try to help people to understand why some do it. And give an indication of the emotions it brings. Killing cmdrs in a fair fight is a very different experience. You can feel accomplishment and pride at your skill. Killing those cmdrs that are completely defense less is another experience. And one very much worth having.
Let's keep the galaxy dangerous for all.
I cannot talk about real life here because I cannot do it justice. Just let it be known I don't believe in hurting people, anybody.