In the last few months I've been trying all sorts of new things.
These various activities make everyone around me happy because they see me doing something "normal".
But it does not make me happy. In fact my happiness levels are lowering. Actively getting out and about makes me feel worse.
The thing is I'm happy to not socialise and interact with people "irl". But it seems everyone around me expects me to do just that.
Here's my dream life: a job pushing trolleys at ASDA, and going home each day to my room to spend a few hours on my computer. I know it sounds like a crap dead end plan. But it's simple. Really simple. And I just wish people would accept that my life goals are pretty low. I don't want a relationship. I don't want a family. And I don't want the stress of a "successful" career.
I just want to live at home, pay my mum rent, and play a few video games. I frequently beg for advice on how to get into work. A simple supermarket job is all I really want. But nobody helps me. I want to help myself but I have no idea how.
I feel everyone expects me to do "more" because I happened to have a retentative memory at school. Truth is I fluked my way through school. Was a complete waste of time really.
There's a lot of things I'm doing right now because I feel like I'm expected to chase dreams.
But I just want to give those up, because really, the only dream I have is to push supermarket trolleys and pay my mum rent. Then cut myself off from the world for another night.
Yes! Everyone is free to pursue their own life :-D
That said, here's the advice I gave my children, and now give my grand children:
- Freedom isn't free. If you want to live with a roommate to split the bills, you'll also have to put up with your roommate.
- Reality is Reality. No matter how much you "wish" people were different, wishing won't make it so.
- You are what you eat. Most overweight people (like me) simply consume too many calories, period. If you meet someone who thinks this doesn't apply to them, dare them to count their daily calorie intake (they won't since ignorance is bliss.)
- People settle for the
inaction of complaining and blaming when
they know how to solve a problem but
don't want to exert themselves to do so (it's so much easier to complain and blame than solve.)
I also recommend these great books too:
- The Energy Bus
- No Excuses
- How To Win Friends and Influence People (book is better than title)
- The Success Principles
- The 7 Habits of Highly Successful People
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