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This is exactly how seal-clubbers are made. I've only recently began lightly preying on commanders in situations where my narrative fits. If I eventually sour, I'm self-aware enough to know that I'll find a hardcore gank crew and completely abandon civility.
...because schadenfreude.
You don’t have to make excuses or blame someone else for going down the path of seal clubbing, we are all adults with the ability to make our own decisions. If you wanna go seal club just accept that it is what you want to do, embrace it and go for it.