I am terribly sorry that you mother did such horrible things to you.
But I was attacked by a man with a knife, and another one stuck a .44 magnum in my face and very nearly blew my brains out with it. But I don't go through life convinced that all men are psychotic killers. SOME men are psychotic, vicious, violent creatures. Some women are too. But statistically men are much more prone to violence than women. And that IS a verifiable fact. Testosterone poisoning is a terrible thing. =P
In all seriousness traumatic events affect us deeply. But we have to learn to get past them. I wish you the best of luck with your efforts.
Respectfully, tell me what your point is about "testosterone poisoning." (and why you decided to add a =p after it)