I think you just ran out of stuff to do. It's like me saying "I've been cooped up in this house for weeks, and yesterday I was going to count the carpet fibers in every room, that's my goal now, but for some reason I cannot bring myself to enter those rooms because I know it's such a grind..."I probably should have never set my goals on taking my Vulture, The Ronin on Distant Worlds 2. Now I must get all the stuff to upgrade its FSD sufficiently for my goals, which involve doing the same thing over and over and over and over again. Now I hear of the Guardian module FSDs through the grapevine...
Am I kidding myself? This isn't the game I signed up for, but if I want to pretend to hang with the big boys, this is what I must deal with. There isn't a better way other than just giving up the ghost and taking my Cobra or the like. If you want to hang, you have to put in the work, but that isn't really why I play this game.
It's my choice, and I know it, but knowing the option is there, I'm driven to want to achieve it. The cost, however, seems to be more than I'm willing to stomach, so I'm at a bit of a loss. Maybe I just don't have what it takes.
I haven't been able to bring myself to login in more than a month.This isn't the game I wanted to play.
What a strange predicament I find myself in.
Dude, get out of the house. No one wants to engineer a Vulture to explore or whatever Distant Worlds 2 is. The people who take sidewinders across the galaxy because they can simply don't have anything else to do. It's not a predicament to have a life outside of a game that you finished a long time ago.