Understandable. When I first started playing and saw how BIS and DeLadySigner built their parks, I literally went up to my brother and sister (this is a 20 year old walking to his younger siblings) amd said: "I'll never become them"I'm always hard on myself and probably compare myself too much with the top builders, instead of just looking how I gradually improve. Working on that bad habit.
But, seeing all the builds here have helped me. All the tips I've gotten have helped me.
Most importantly: never give up. I can't tell you how much it really helps to not give up